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We are back folks. Declan's fits I mean. Holy mackerel. He has had a killer past few days........ Since Christmas he has been soooo much better and while I was nervous to really think he was for real for real changing, I thought he might be. And just in time for the baby which was really exciting because he seemed to be becoming more independent, playing by himself, taking "no" like a champ and not throwing himself on the ground. But we digress.............

I just had a ten minute standoff with him while he screamed in his room and I held the door handle so he couldn't come out. And he was crying so hard he sounded a couple times like he was gonna vom. All because he wouldn't let me eat my lunch - he HAD to watch Elmo. A few weeks ago he would have patiently waited, but not so anymore :( oh my...... My blood pressure is thru the roof just worrying about how on earth I'm going to handle this when a baby come because I know it will be ten times worse as he will be wanting my attention that much more.

I'm literally frightened right now :(

Holy balls.

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Decky wanted in on the pics :)

He just doesn't know it. But I can NOT resist his little you know what.
Working on 39 weeks almost there!



He has the perfect resting spot:


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The reader

Paul and I were cleaning up the kitchen tonight and I didn't hear decky (usually a bad sign) but I found him around the corner, reading. So cute. The boy loves a good book. LOVES.

Love him.

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Simple life

I remember, before Declan came, how nervous I was about how Paul and i's life was about to change. We had a very simple life, but I loved it. Every part of it. We were and still are very much homebodies - my favorite things were always cooking new meals we had either learned at one of our cooking classes or saw on a show and then laying around watching movies. We would do this all.the.time. It was simple but I loved it and I was terrified of what a baby would do to upset that balance. I would say for the first few weeks too that I was a little resentful towards decky because it did indeed throw a very large wrench in our life. There was no more "Paul and Alli hang out time" and I missed it terribly.

Well fast forward to today, 2 years later, and we have a new version of this "simple life". It was an absolutely gorgeous day which turned into a really nice night so after deckys nap we went out on the front porch and watched all the cars drive by over the "bump bump" - speed bump - its one of his favorite things ever. I was looking thru a cooking magazine that had come in the mail and he was collecting rocks, driving his truck on the porch and jumping off the stairs..... And every once in awhile he would randomly come over and give me a hug. A big hug. One where he would lay on me and become dead weight :) not the most comfortable but totally the best hugs from your toddler. And I had this thought flash thru my mind again...... We have such a simple life right now. And it's about to be turned upside down. And I'm frightened. Just like I was scared about missing out on time with Paul, I'm scared to miss out on my time with Declan. It's so precious, this time. HE is so precious.

I hope two years from now I will be having another one of these moments, except with my TWO boys playing with trucks and giving mommy hugs.......

I really really love our life right now so I have to keep reminding myself that it just gets better.....it only gets better.


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Love.

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My Valentine :)

Paul and I were just talking about how February is a pretty busy month for our family and most likely will get even busier with this next little buddy so feb 14th kinda sneaks up on ya. We are going to "celebrate" this weekend when nana comes and hopefully she can watch decky for us (surprise nana! We haven't really asked you yet oops!!!) so yesterday I wasn't expecting anything but Paul came home with this:



He really isn't a flower guy so those were a huge surprise but the best part was the brownies - duh!!!!!! The man knows the way to my heart :) that is for sure.

With everything going on in our lives right now it certainly would be easy to pass right over this day but Paul, thank you so much for taking the time for US. I love you more than anything on this earth - you are my heart, you are my home. I remember back to my first year in Colorado when I was in love with you/stalking you and you kept giving me the heisman and so many nights I would go to bed praying that one day you would feel the way about me that I did about you. I hoped, wished, prayed.....not sure it really would ever be real. But it is. My dream came true. My honest to goodness dream and as that country group "the band perry" sings - "I don't want the whole world, the sun, the moon and all their light. I just want to be the only girl you love all your life....."

Forever and ever. Amen :)

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Beach baby

My brother, Davis, got decky these cute flip flops for his birthday and then came yesterday. Decky insists on wearing them even though he has no clue has to walk in them. And they are still just a liiiiittle too big. But it's really cute. Thanks d!!!!!! Love ya :)

"reading" and trying to walk



Here's his thank you video - and also a fantastic example of how Declan communicates :) hes asking me for goldfish just FYI - that's what he thinks "fishies do" so that's how he tells me he wants some goldfish. And grabs my hand to take me to the pantry - and he signs "thank you". Why talk when mommy understands this type of speaking?????? Problem number one.

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