He might kill me

But how cute is our chubby chubberson in these pj's?!?!?!?!!? I had found these basically in the bottom of his drawer - somehow they had been buried and I thought they were cute, plus they were perfect for the hot beach to sleep in so I figured what the hey..........

SPANDIES!!! These would be loose on most children.....but not this kid and NOT those thighs :)

I think these 24 month pajamas are a little too small - what do you think?!?!?!?! hahaha oh buddy, you are a handful.......

A stripper's early years.....

Might look something like this.

Then again the kid likes to see how many ways he can switch up the "where is Declan" game. :) I pray he doesn't learn how to take his pants or diaper off anytime soon.....

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Bald Head take two!

So we got to go back to bald head this past week but for much shorter of a time than we were hoping :( just way too much going on in our lives right now for a Vacay. Honestly as we were driving down Paul and I were contemplating a) just turning around or b) only stayin a day and a half because we really needed to be in Conway figuring out our housing situation. We figured we would do b but thank the good Lord above - we wrote a letter begging and pleading and offering to pay more if the landlord would extend our lease just 6 months and they did!!!! Halleluja! We basically layed out the situation and begged and they understood finallyyyyyyyyy and made a deal with us. Phew.

We still came back on Friday - Paul went to georgia for his godsons christening and decky and I are back on the house hunt as well as getting all the info needed to get preapproved for a loan. It's certainly a good time to buy a home price wise but the process to borrow money now because of the massive fallout is a little intense. Oh well it is what it is and I really hope we can reallyyyy start looking for serious here as soon as Paul gets back. With his season coming up in a month it will be back to the madness and I am sure as hell not choosing this home on my own!

In any case - some phone pics!
Another awesome trip - cannot say enough how much the little man loves it down there (and so do we!!)



My brother had made these before so we tried them one night - insane - chocolate chip wrapped around an oreo topped with ice cream. Please.

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Well that is new!

We haven't done any sort of sign language with decky but since he doesn't say a whole lot yet we figured it might be time to give it a shot. It's been pretty amazing how much he has picked up and how quickly.......... I'm guessing there's a reason so many daycares are putting it in their curriculum - there is certainly something to it. My favorite is when he says "please" - rubs his belly like the chubby kid that he is :) and he has has has to lift his shirt everytime.

The other new thing is how good he has gotten at feeding himself! I was able to just give him this bowl of cantelope and walk away! Good lord stop growing so fast please......



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Enough already

Lots to update on but the long and short of it is that our house in Colorado got about 50 showings and not one offer up until 3 weeks ago. In two days we had an offer and were then under contract set to close on 6/22.

On the flip side we had just assumed the house we were renting in Conway would let us go month to month just for a month or two until we found a place. Not the case - will write about that later so decky and I drove about 200 miles last weekend looking at houses because at that point we were going to have to set a world record on closing in co/finding a house in SC/closing on that in about 30 days...

And this is what Declan thought about that. I don't know how many grapes and bananas I fed him last weekend to keep him from going crazy but he earned t sitting in his seat for so long just driving and getting lost with mommy.


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Currently I'm diggin........

Our "garden" - we don't have an area that I can really plant herbs and vegetables but luckily Bill made us these awesome planters last year that made the trip so I planted a few things and they're really starting to take off.

Jalapenos!

I just cut all the cilantro and used it in quac, salsa and a couple mexican dishes so that's coming back right now but use your imagination! It was DELICIOUS!

Basil! I went to the grocery store today and looked everywhere for pine nuts (I want to make pesto for goodness sakes!) and couldn't find, finally asked someone there and they said "paaaaan nuts???? whut are tha-ose???" so yea, not sure what I'm gonna do with all this basil because clearly I couldn't find a key ingredient....

Tomatoes!

Little babies! I am trying out some heirloom plants this time so we'll see how they come out.

My baby and his curls......no, Paul, you are NOT cutting!

My new necklace! I am not someone who wears a ton of jewelry. I've worn the same necklace for almost 10 years now - every. single. day. my mom gave it to me the day she dropped me off at Wake for preseason my freshman year. It's a guardian angel and she has the same necklace - she told me that if I always wear mine, she always wears hers, we will never be apart...........and we have never been apart :)

For Mother's Day/our anniversary, Paul wanted to get me a necklace but he wanted me to pick it out and I saw these and thought they were very unique, very special, and something I could wear every day. It's a calendar necklace from Dalla Nonna, and its Paul and I's anniversary. The best day of my life to date, and now I get to wear it close to my heart every single day. 

And of course this kid :) He's got on his monster PJ's, which really......are perfect for him.

Little cheese monster :) Love him. More than life.

This face:

Makes me forget.

There is a whole lot of pregnancy/labor/parenthood propaganda out there. Not that they make it sound easy, but they make it sound all rosy and beautiful and like this little wonderland so if you don't feel like at all times, there is clearly something wrong with you. False. The truth is, its extremely hard, its not rosy, its a whole heckuva lot of insecure times, its physically dirty (and gross) and there are times that you just want to ball up, cry, and somehow enter a time machine that will take you back to when you had absolutely no one to worry about except for yourself.

Everyone also always says "oh once you hold that baby in your arms you'll forget EVERYTHING" - again - false. For me at least. I will never forget the 0 to 60 my body went thru in terms of contractions thanks to a little gel induction. I will never forget vomitting, pooping and having a horrible contraction all at once on the toilet while my husband holds the trash can for me to throw up in. Vulgar, sorry, but true and no one ever talks about THAT part of it! I don't think (although Paul begs to differ) I ever even let out a fart in front of my husband up until that point but there I am rocking all three at once - it can really only go up from there right? I'll never forget the terrible pain I felt when Declan was crowning and my epidural had worn off and I will certainly never forget feeling everything tear - yes - because of his monster head. And then the stitching up part...I mean come on. Holding Declan and looking at him after all that time was amazing......but not amazing enough to make me forget those last 8 hours. Sorry.

Those baby blues however make me forget about the first few weeks when we were up all night. It makes me forget the first 2 weeks trying to figure out why he was up all day every day screaming and not sleeping like every other newborn I had seen (oh - you aren't getting any food?! you're starving?!?! ok then mommy is so sorry!!!! let's fix that asap!). It makes me forget the stress about his skin issues and subsequent allergies. It makes me forget about how the fits he throws when I say "NO" to something he really really wants. It makes me forget the really bad days and I can honestly say when I look back on these last 16 months, I truly only remember the good times. It is crazy and I'm a cheesy person yes but I do try to be honest about life so when things are bad I'll say they're bad - but I really don't remember the bad times. They're washed from my memory. I only remember his first smile, his first laugh, when he first rolled over, watching his intense blue collar self teach himself to crawl, his incredibly social, charming and flirty personality etc etc etc. I could go on, as any mom could I'm sure. 

I'm reading "the girl with the dragoon tattoo" right now and the other night it was A) late but B) in a really suspenseful/kind of scary spot (thus why i was up late reading) and I was like ok i really need to put this down and go to bed but I was far too scared to relax and fall asleep. so i took out my phone, looked at these pictures of declan that i had taken that day and i swear they just made me smile and take a breath. 

He really does make everything better. And makes me forget all the bad...........