C and D
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Because I need to write it out...........
I know there will be moments in every day where I doubt if I can do this out here on my own, so I wanted to write it down so I can look back and remind myself of these truths:
-At the end of the day, this upcoming move is by far the best for our family. In less than 2 months we will all be together, maybe ALL OF US meeting at the beach for Easter break :) Take a little dip in the ocean. Why not.
-I will miss TERRIBLY all that Colorado has to offer so instead of wishing I was elsewhere, I need to enjoy this moment right here and take in every little last bit Boulder and Broomfield have to offer.
-I am strong enough to do this. Again, cheeseball, but there's a song that says "even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger" - this is all SO good for me and I need to remember that when I'm feeling down, sad, lonely, pick your word.
-Because we are also in the midst of trying to sell our house, there's a certain amount of cleanliness, organization etc that is required..........all of which I do not have but this will definitely FORCE me to become more clean, organized, better time manager etc and that can only be a positive! Paul will be so pleased with my improved self ;)
-I have done "this" before and gotten thru it so I know I can do it again. Taking my mom and brother to the airport this morning I had that nauseous feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach, knowing what was ahead and that it was just going to be me and buddy out here for the next few months and I remember feeling that same pit almost 11 months ago, taking my mom to the airport a week after Declan was born thinking, "how in the hell am I possibly going to do this" - I did, we got thru it, and I know we will get thru this as well.
-I have the absolute sweetest boy in the world who lights up my life in a way I never knew, and NO MATTER WHAT, I mean absolutely NO MATTER WHAT, he makes me smile so if nothing else, I have him to come home to at the end of the day and I know, he will make me smile.
-Skype is my new best friend. Well, Skype and the Magic Eraser but that's a different topic altogether. We've been able to skype with Paul over breakfast, dinner, playtime, whatever. It has been so nice to see his beautiful smile and hear Declan say "dadadadada" when he sees his daddy :)
-Like my mom says, "I'm only a phone call away" - and along with Skype, this is going to be my next bff as I know at any point, my mom and dad, Carol, Nancy, my brothers and some close friends will be there on the other end to talk me thru whatever funk I'm in :)
-Without getting too deep and freaking people out, I do believe whole-heartedly in the Lord above and when Paul was going thru this whole interviewing process I had an awesome peace about what was taking place. I trusted that God had and has a perfect plan and whatever was going to happen this go-round, it was what was meant to happen and I know for whatever reason, God has me out here with our son, away from Paul and our family to make us stronger and in the end, that is what will happen. I just need to trust........................easier said than done but I know God, and I know He will pull us thru this. I will not question THE MAN! He knows muuuuch more and can see muuuuuch farther ahead into the future than I can so I will trust this is what is right for now.
Phew - think that's it. I just know I'm going to have to remind myself of these things so I wanted to write them down while they were fresh in my mind so in those weak moments, I can be reminded of these truths and not get weighed down with the BS! Let's go, Alli - time to rally ;) Sack up, as Paul would say..............
-At the end of the day, this upcoming move is by far the best for our family. In less than 2 months we will all be together, maybe ALL OF US meeting at the beach for Easter break :) Take a little dip in the ocean. Why not.
-I will miss TERRIBLY all that Colorado has to offer so instead of wishing I was elsewhere, I need to enjoy this moment right here and take in every little last bit Boulder and Broomfield have to offer.
-I am strong enough to do this. Again, cheeseball, but there's a song that says "even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger" - this is all SO good for me and I need to remember that when I'm feeling down, sad, lonely, pick your word.
-Because we are also in the midst of trying to sell our house, there's a certain amount of cleanliness, organization etc that is required..........all of which I do not have but this will definitely FORCE me to become more clean, organized, better time manager etc and that can only be a positive! Paul will be so pleased with my improved self ;)
-I have done "this" before and gotten thru it so I know I can do it again. Taking my mom and brother to the airport this morning I had that nauseous feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach, knowing what was ahead and that it was just going to be me and buddy out here for the next few months and I remember feeling that same pit almost 11 months ago, taking my mom to the airport a week after Declan was born thinking, "how in the hell am I possibly going to do this" - I did, we got thru it, and I know we will get thru this as well.
-I have the absolute sweetest boy in the world who lights up my life in a way I never knew, and NO MATTER WHAT, I mean absolutely NO MATTER WHAT, he makes me smile so if nothing else, I have him to come home to at the end of the day and I know, he will make me smile.
-Skype is my new best friend. Well, Skype and the Magic Eraser but that's a different topic altogether. We've been able to skype with Paul over breakfast, dinner, playtime, whatever. It has been so nice to see his beautiful smile and hear Declan say "dadadadada" when he sees his daddy :)
-Like my mom says, "I'm only a phone call away" - and along with Skype, this is going to be my next bff as I know at any point, my mom and dad, Carol, Nancy, my brothers and some close friends will be there on the other end to talk me thru whatever funk I'm in :)
-Without getting too deep and freaking people out, I do believe whole-heartedly in the Lord above and when Paul was going thru this whole interviewing process I had an awesome peace about what was taking place. I trusted that God had and has a perfect plan and whatever was going to happen this go-round, it was what was meant to happen and I know for whatever reason, God has me out here with our son, away from Paul and our family to make us stronger and in the end, that is what will happen. I just need to trust........................easier said than done but I know God, and I know He will pull us thru this. I will not question THE MAN! He knows muuuuch more and can see muuuuuch farther ahead into the future than I can so I will trust this is what is right for now.
Phew - think that's it. I just know I'm going to have to remind myself of these things so I wanted to write them down while they were fresh in my mind so in those weak moments, I can be reminded of these truths and not get weighed down with the BS! Let's go, Alli - time to rally ;) Sack up, as Paul would say..............
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Nothing like a friend you've known your whole life...............
We were texting last night and I said it then but I'll say it again, there's just nothing like someone you have known your whole entire life. Whit and I started playing soccer together when we were 8 or 9 and played until we went to college. Every single weekend since we were 8 we spent together, whether it was traveling to God knows where for games or having our parents drive us each halfway to each other's house, meeting at Crystal burger and then spending the weekend together. My whole entire childhood and memories involve my sweet friend Whitney and I have no doubt, no matter where we are in our lives, be it Colorado, NC or now SC, we will always find a way to meet up, catch up, and remind each other of how dear a friend we have in the other. I love you Whit and thanks so much for getting stuck in D-town!!!!!!!
Mets?!?!
Its pretty funny but Paul loves the Yankees, his dad loves the Mets. Paul is a Giants guy, his dad a Jets man. What can you do - Pop has been very good up until now in letting Declan wear all his 94032 Yankee shirts and jerseys but this Christmas he finally broke down and got him a little Mets shirt :) The battle begins!
Look at those thighs! I don't know why I'm always amazed at those things but shoo!!!
mommy's hair tie - so interesting
our little linebacker
pushing sleds already
this makes me think of him at the beach carrying around his little sand pail! Can't wait!!!!!
First bloody!
He busted his face on the vacuum and literally 2 minutes later went right back to it.....wanted to play with Pop I guess! He's still got a little battle scar - my rough and tumble boy!!!!! Gotta love him :)
Sweet Carolina, take me home...........
....................and off we go!!!!! So many of you probably have heard one or another by now but my stud muffin of a husband is the new Head Women's Soccer Coach at Coastal Carolina University!!!!! YEA BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am absolutely over the moon for Paul. Perhaps I'm slightly biased, but I really do believe he is a phenomenal coach and all he has needed is an opportunity - and the opportunity has arrived. Tactically, Paul can coach with the best of them but I think what really makes him amazing is his ability to relate to the girls, motivate and inspire them. Paul genuinely cares about people.........not just me or Declan, or his family, or his friends - he cares and is interested in EVERYONE and people are able to feel that and respond to it. I know the girls at CU are really going to miss him but the cCu girls are getting one helluva guy to lead their program. I have always felt that if you are able to relay to the girls how much you love them, they will fight equally, if not harder for you as their coach. Girls need that - there is no way around it - and Paul has it. He's going to be amazing............ahhhhh I just cannot say how happy I am for him. It has certainly been a long time coming, my love, and I am beyond proud of you.
This will certainly be an interesting time for our family as Paul has been in SC for about a week and half which leaves Declan and I to sell our house in Colorado. At the end of the day this is what is best for our family and we will all be together again soon enough. Paul will be plenty busy trying to right a program that has gone a little wrong in the past year so he won't need any distractions. Our plan is to be out there by March 1st, house sold or not. If you're the praying type of person, please pray that there is someone out there looking for a house in the Broomfield area and they actually DO want to make that big purchase right after Christmas :) We could sure use it.
In any case, thank you to everyone who has sent well wishes and offers to help us all during this time. I know Paul will love to hear from you and Declan and I would love company every once in awhile so don't be strangers! We love ya!!!!!!!!
Off to enjoy the next two months in Colorado.......
http://www.cubuffs.com/ViewArticle.dbml?SPSID=3937&SPID=259&DB_LANG=C&ATCLID=205072891&DB_OEM_ID=600
----this one brought me to tears. Bill is not only Paul's boss but his best friend, he was the best man at our wedding, he came to the hospital and brought us both Big Mac's the night Declan was born ;)........the list could go on forever. Bill, it is so unbelievably rare what you and Paul have and we will miss you terribly. Thanks for being his mentor, best friend, and brother. WE LOVE YOU!
http://www.goccusports.com/sports/w-soccer/spec-rel/010611aad.html
----here's the release from Coastal!
I am absolutely over the moon for Paul. Perhaps I'm slightly biased, but I really do believe he is a phenomenal coach and all he has needed is an opportunity - and the opportunity has arrived. Tactically, Paul can coach with the best of them but I think what really makes him amazing is his ability to relate to the girls, motivate and inspire them. Paul genuinely cares about people.........not just me or Declan, or his family, or his friends - he cares and is interested in EVERYONE and people are able to feel that and respond to it. I know the girls at CU are really going to miss him but the cCu girls are getting one helluva guy to lead their program. I have always felt that if you are able to relay to the girls how much you love them, they will fight equally, if not harder for you as their coach. Girls need that - there is no way around it - and Paul has it. He's going to be amazing............ahhhhh I just cannot say how happy I am for him. It has certainly been a long time coming, my love, and I am beyond proud of you.
This will certainly be an interesting time for our family as Paul has been in SC for about a week and half which leaves Declan and I to sell our house in Colorado. At the end of the day this is what is best for our family and we will all be together again soon enough. Paul will be plenty busy trying to right a program that has gone a little wrong in the past year so he won't need any distractions. Our plan is to be out there by March 1st, house sold or not. If you're the praying type of person, please pray that there is someone out there looking for a house in the Broomfield area and they actually DO want to make that big purchase right after Christmas :) We could sure use it.
In any case, thank you to everyone who has sent well wishes and offers to help us all during this time. I know Paul will love to hear from you and Declan and I would love company every once in awhile so don't be strangers! We love ya!!!!!!!!
Off to enjoy the next two months in Colorado.......
http://www.cubuffs.com/ViewArticle.dbml?SPSID=3937&SPID=259&DB_LANG=C&ATCLID=205072891&DB_OEM_ID=600
----this one brought me to tears. Bill is not only Paul's boss but his best friend, he was the best man at our wedding, he came to the hospital and brought us both Big Mac's the night Declan was born ;)........the list could go on forever. Bill, it is so unbelievably rare what you and Paul have and we will miss you terribly. Thanks for being his mentor, best friend, and brother. WE LOVE YOU!
http://www.goccusports.com/sports/w-soccer/spec-rel/010611aad.html
----here's the release from Coastal!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
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